This Film takes place over 3 years, in 6 Countries and is 35 years in the making! My journey starts with the hardest decision I have ever made in my life. At 32, I decided, in one day to turn my back on the life that I thought I wanted.

Stuck in a vicious cycle of dependancy, self sabotage and depression, the choice, in my state of mind was… do or die.

I decided, that same day, without even knowing it, to enter the wilderness of a quest to find….. something. Something my soul was crying for.

Facing the fear of the unknown, feeling the pain of an epic break-up and also tasting freedom, I felt compelled to document this process.
I also felt compelled to surf and travel. And so I did.
From confronting my past in Malaysia, discovering my roots in the Philippines and in the Austrian alps, to pushing my personal limits in Zurich and Portugal.

I learnt so much from the challenge to become a stronger surfer, a stronger person and what begins as a paddle out of something, becomes a paddle into something bigger than I could have ever imagined.